The reason I'm leaving home is ...

A lot of my peers are already experiencing the joys of raising a kid. That certainly is a reminder to experience the world differently, through kids eyes. The usual curiosity, wonder and awe about the world tends to fade when we start to slip into adulthood. A disappointing thought however, that you may, at some point, need a reminder to start living purposely.

To be in complete responsibility for another human being - brave shit, no doubt about that. Sometimes I'm not even sure I can be responsible for myself. At this age (btw I'm 24), I believe many people start to wonder where they're going in life, or - start slowly giving into fear. And the most frightening of it all - actually starting to believe they cannot be or have something they've always dreamt of.

It leaves me wondering: why people really give up on their dreams, so soon?

Too old, too late, too sloppy, uncapable, weak, unsuccessful, late, messy, angry, unconscious ... Are only some of the adjectives I'm coming by on a daily basis.

But I see so many wonderful, genuine, colorful, different, unique - people. Each one of them has their own beautiful features, and the flaws, well ... We all have them. So, why do we want to get rid of them so aggressively? We're too focused on what's wrong, always looking for another mistake to justify our beliefs. Finding another scratch, another wrinkle and another problem.

Dear whoever is reading this: know you're not alone. We all have doubt, we all have disbelief, we all start to feel dull, lazy, messy and sometimes misdirected. It is a part of the process we need to get through, but I beg you please - do not lose your spark. You just kept it hidden for so long, in some place you've already forgotten about. Whatever you're convincing yourself right now, know it's not your purpose, If you do not feel good believing it.

Always, ALWAYS, make time to enjoy things you love doing. Please take time to take a deep breath, and smell the winter air. Take a minute before bed and think about what you are grateful for. Know that you are privileged if you know you have a brand new day ahead. Keep your mind on the bigger picture and don't dwell on things that don't make you feel good.

The reason I'm counting last months in Slovenia is to create something bigger that myself. I need to spread the word, that you mustn't give up on your dream and you shouldn't listen to your fear.

It's a funny thing, fear just doesn't get you anywhere. It keeps you safe, but it keeps you in the same, comfortable place. You may beg to differ, but this one great life is given for so much more you can achieve, believe and give. The reason I am leaving in few months time to grow and appreciate more.

Never cease to create, and make love.

L.